Preaching to the Choir

today in english we were talking about destruction in civilization. from that topic we went into africa and then my teacher brought up The One Campaign . my teacher asked if anyone knew what it was (i was really shocked to hear that no one had ever heard of it!) and i raised my hand and pointed to my bracelet. she saw and i was called on to teach what the One Campaign was all about. me being the scardy cat that i am said "if you sign the thing on the website" you are saying that you support the countries holding a debt over africa to let it go so they can have more money to "fight diseases and AIDS and get more food and water so they can live better". i personally think i could have done a better job explaning it if i had time to think about what to say so i didn't look stupid and stumble on my words. i don't know if my explanation got through to everyone but i finally understand when they say that our voice needs to be heard. in those 30 seconds that i 'preached to the choir' i felt that i was doing good, that i was making the message clear. it was an awesome feeling, and you never know if someone took a nervous girl's short undetailed explanation and actually signed the declaration*

Short, Sweet, and to the Point

small update on yesterday's trip to my 3rd b-day party:

turns out everyone except 3 of my cousins went! one was working, another goes to school in San Diego i think and my other is obviously in the hospital. of course being a "picky" teenager, all my aunts and uncles gave me money. my grandparents together gave me $40 and then later one my grandpa called me into the kitchen and held out his hand. he gave me an extra $20. he's cool! and my uncle (which if you read my blog at all you should know who he is by now...but if you don't he's the one behind the reason i went to the U2 concert) gave me burnt CDs of the complete U2. i didn't have it cause if i had to decide on spending $150 on music or the same amount of money on concert tickets i would obviously go with the tickets. i actually blew off my spanish homework so i could get on the computer and listen to it! but yesterday was a pretty cool day. i saw my cousin who's now 5 months...she's so cute! and for some reason it ACTUALLY felt like my birthday!

it's raining! i love it! because i'm only happy when it rains. but baby it's cold outside.

my new link is to @U2's "YouTube". you can watch an post videos on U2 related things. it's pretty cool....check it out. i think i was member# 26...but i have no videos to post....or maybe i do...i have to check in all my files and junk like that*

Birthday after Birthday

well i thought my brother was going to buy me something U2 related for my birthday...turns out he went in the opposite direction and bought me the RARE alice in wonderland soundtrack. i tried looking for it about 2 weeks before my b-day but the only ones i could find were for $70 or $90 and itunes didn't have it for sale...only partial album. my dad bought my a necklace which was in the box.

the day after i went to my grandma's to celebrate. tinkerbell themed. i like tinkerbell but there's a point where enough is enough. i did homework there and got up only to eat and to do the cake and presents. my great aunt (grandma's sister) gave me $100!! and my other aunt (i have no idea if she is our aunt but i think she's one of those relatives who is a long time family friend that she feels like family) gave $25. the sad part of the night: that's all the presents i got from my relatives other than my dad. my dad had to bring his own gifts he bought for me to the party. i thought that was really sad cause he knew that they weren't gonna get me anything!! it was that part of the family that was making a HUGE deal of me having a huge 15th b-day and they don't care enough to buy me anything....not so much as a card! i actually don't care that much...it's my mom who's takin' it up the wazoo!! she's got feed up with that side of the family not giving gifts (cause it's happened to about every one of my sibling's b-days) that's she doesn't want to see them until christmas and we aren't going to my cousin's communion or birthday next month. my brother said that it's my fault that i'm breaking up the family. i laughed, but then i wondered. is it actually my fault? stupid birthday!

tomorrow i am going to my grandma's house (the opposite ones from the previous paragraph). i guess that will be ok. once again i celebrate my birthday. woohooo? just reliving the past. no one's coming. and the people who are might go to the hospital to visit my cousin. she's getting better. she got a bone marrow transplant from her sister the donor. now she's on radiation. my brother went to see her today. i couldn't go cause he was going afterwards to his play. my school is holding a fundraiser for kids with cancer (i think it's lymphoma also) to raise money for their treatment. there was a kick off assembly last week. i didn't want to go. i would have cried and ran out of the room. when the students who are managing the fundraiser came into our room to talk briefly about it, i felt my eyes water. i had to look down or people would see me. i wouldn't have wanted to step outside to ball my eyes out while i left my non-speaking spanish friends confused. i was able to control myself. my hair has been falling out alot recently. yester after my shower i looked at the drain and got out twice as much hair that would fall out in a DAY. i have no idea what is causing all the stress. but i know it is stress. Could it be about my cousin? school? i don't know. i guess i need to watch the Discotheque video cause the part where Larry the cowboy dances at the end ALWAYS cheers me up!

on a lighter note, i'm reading Lord of the Flies for english. there is one chapter called Shadows and Tall Trees same as the U2 song. i found that quite amusing when i was reading. it's a pretty good book. it has it's parts where they are boring and parts where are really....uh....not boring. don't tell me how it ends cause then i'll punch you! not really. but i can't stand for people to ruin movies and books for me unless i know for a FACT that i will never see/read it.

oh, one pet peeve: i hate when people think that i do things because of U2 or that when a song is played on the radio i HAVE to listen to it and SING. when i went to disneyland a couple of weeks ago i bought some sunglasses that light up. i thought they were cool in a dorky way. my dad said that i bought them because of bono. that didn't even come to my mind when i bought them. and the other day U2 was on tuesday twoplay on VH1Classic and my brother had the remote. i had no idea that it was going to be on. so he changed it and new year's day was on....and he left it. i told him that it was ok to change it, but he said he felt that he had to leave it there. and everytime a U2 songs comes out on the radio i am expected to sing. (i do but in my head). i choose not to sing, it's called will power....some people should learn what it is.

one more short thing: that time i went to california adventure i saw diane keaton. i was star struck a little. people think that becuase i live near hollywood i must see stars all the time. actually i've only seen a few...and they weren't big like these guys.*

some songs that have been in my head recently:
I Bet You Look Good On the Dancefloor- Arctic Monkeys
Black Horse and the Cherry Tree- KT Tunstall

14 to 15 Overnight

what a day! (i mean that in a good and bad way)

good: i got to hang out with friends and i was the b-day girl! hurray hurray! it was cool....we went to mc donalds and to ralphs and to the park. oh! i got a cool rolling stones t-shirt from this gal. i'll wear it at part 2 of my birtday at my grandma's house. and i got to eat cheese cake...."yum yum gimme some!" i also got to be left alone on my b-day for awhile (meaning no one was hunting me down with a phone # to say happy b-day). i don't know if i've told you my little birthday problem, well it's like this: i hate my borthday. honestly i do. but i am trying to put a positive attitude on it today. i'm getting older and my bones hurt, i guess i need to drink more milk! i think the thing that gets me most about my birthday is getting wrong attention. i want to get attention on stage and not cause i have to! i also hate that whole cake thing cause you look stupid in pictures and on film.

bad: i had to go pee and i was hungry. i was kinda cranky cause i was tired and i wasn't my full self...even if i did eat a birthday candle. i did what? i bit a candle to see what it tasted like (not good my i add). i think i had sand in my shoes which mad in alittle uncomfortable...but other than that nothing else was "bad".

well i got home from my friends house (who by the way has the biggest t.v. i'v EVER seen in a home!! i mean i've seen them in the stores but never in a home!) at 8:45 after buying a pie for me so they can sing to me. makes sences? we haven't sang yet....but we plan to. it's already 11:11 and i still haven't sang the b-day song with the family. oh and apparently there are presents even though i didn't ask for anything cause i got my ipod. let's guess shall we? um....a cd from my brother...maybe the best of journey or a U2 something. other than that i think it's clothes and maybe an attachment for my ipod. we'll see.

i was in health making a college with magazines and i spotted alittle article on who Bloc Party sounds like. it's an article from last march but i still want to say what it said...a brief summary: sounds like YOUNG U2 but without the bono and his activism. there's more to the article but my dad came home and he gave me a gift that i want to open. i'll go more into detail later. man i haope that gift is a pocket knife cause when my brothers turned 16 they got a rosery and a knife. i wanna shank some people....i'm joking! you should know when i am by now*

No Time for U2 (and you too)

i'm back...for a brief moment just to say this: it's my birthday tomorrow!!! yay! i really have no plans except go with friends and get hyper over nothing...maybe sugar shots. on saturday i'm going to my grandma's to celebrate with everybody from there.

i hope the cake has a picture of this on it

speaking of U2, i haven't been keeping up with the news on them. i have alot of reading to do! that's probably one thing i want for my birthday: more time! but time out of school...not in! i've been gone away (from my blog) cause we got a new internet and i couldn't get on for 2 or 3 days and then i have this stupid biology project on the digestive system and i am reading 2 books for english (Lord Of The Flies and Pretend You Don't See Her) not to mention my other homework. i barely have time to eat!! i'm really glad i dropped my honors classes...which makes me feel really stupid but at least i'm not more stressed. i'll take it up next year again. speaking of honors classes (gotta love my transitions!), i had to attend a tutorial for next year's honors english. in the class that i went to the teacher had a poster with all the U2 albums on it. i kinda spaced out on what she was saying and i stared at it saying "I have that one....and that one...and that one....that isn't an album....i have that symbol on my shirt..." it was kinda funny. i don't think i will take her class next year cause it seems like alot of reading...i mean ALOT: 2 books in the summer and them like 6 or 7 victorian novels. not for me! i'll be back tomorrow or sometime this weekend to write more. but for now you'll have to bare with this little update!*